Questions that probably do have answers if I thought about them long enough...

Because I usually work stuff like this out in my head, but I've been slacking off on (a) posting here and (b) maintaining social contact (and when you work from home and communicate with others primarily by phone and email, it can start to make you feel like you're slowly disappearing and maybe going a little bit crazy because you've started to have lengthy conversations with your dog or your cat...not that I'm doing that).

• Why am I posting less often here on Microfamous? One, because the work for which I get paid takes precedence. Two, Twitter and Facebook, the biggest Time-Sucking Wormholes in the universe.
• When I'm walking my dog, why do other people with dogs sometimes cross the street to avoid me? She's 6 pounds of dog and 3 pounds of fur and is the least aggressive dog in the neighborhood. Is it me? Am I violating some neighborhood dog etiquette?
• How long has it been since I spent a quiet Sunday evening soaking in a hot bath with a good book? I CAN'T REMEMBER, that's how long. I have Trouble by Kate Christensen (started it earlier today) and it is going to join me in a bubble bath with an icy glass of Le Croix. (Library, I promise not to get it wet).
• I am completely addicted to True Blood and Mad Men. If I had Showtime, I would have some viewing conflicts, so I watch Weeds, Californication, and Dexter on DVD all at once. I watched six episodes of Californication on Friday night (until around 2am), so I'm not sure if this is the most effective way to feed my television addiction. My friend Michael just got cable after not having it for almost three years. I think not having cable made him smarter. I wonder if TV really does make one lose a few IQ points?
• My sister Katie just created a Facebook account. She just got the Internet 2 months ago and said she would never have a Facebook account. Should I take bets on how long it takes her to (a) sign up for Twitter or (b) start her own blog? Part II: Should I rally the rest of the family to make sure my mother doesn't sign up for Facebook and/or find my blog? Note: taking the chance that one of my sisters or nieces will betray me and send direct link to my blog to my mother via email. She has The Email and uses the Internet primarily for buying things from Sephora and Ann Taylor online. I don't want her reading my Twitter updates, but I wouldn't mind someone telling her about my Sephora Gift Registry.
• Is it normal to accept a party invitation just because you have a craving for tiny meatballs on toothpicks and cucumber sandwiches? Sometimes you just don't want DINNER dinner. I wish there was a delivery service that delivered party food in small increments. Like for one.

Navel-gazing accomplished.

An insomniac says what?

I'm writing this at 5am on a Sunday morning, as I've been awake since 4. I've taken the dog for a walk already. Interesting things happen at this hour, besides early morning humidity. I had company - an elderly woman out walking her dog, two young men leaving an apartment down the block, clearly still inebriated from the night before and stumbling back to wherever they came from, people leaving their houses for jobs or maybe church (at this hour, I'm impressed by their commitment). People returning home from overnight jobs. It's still quiet and I find myself actually enjoying the early morning dark.

My usual insomnia pattern - the stress-related one - involves not being able to fall asleep, or falling asleep for a few hours and waking at 2 or 3am to flip channels on the television or pick up a book for a while until I'm sleepy again. Lately, even if I go to bed after midnight, I find myself waking early in the morning - 5 or 6am. It reminds me of my grandmother, who after the age of 70 or so, would wake before sunrise when she stayed with us for summers. My sisters and I would roll out of bed at 8 or 9am to find my grandmother in the kitchen, hair already combed out from rollers, baking rolls for breakfast or making fry bread with orange preserves. She would have already quietly picked up around the house - "puttering," she called it. She'd have already spent an hour or so sitting at the dining room table and playing solitaire with a deck of cards, or watching early morning infomercials on television. I used to call this "old person insomnia." And now, apparently I have it.

After walking the dog, I finished reading "Mockingbird: A Portrait of Harper Lee" (I think one of the best autobiographies of Harper Lee, even though Lee herself refused to participate). I don't want coffee this early, otherwise I'll find myself cleaning the house by 7am and at the library when it first opens like I did when I woke up before 6am yesterday.

Since I have a few years before middle-age, I know I'm not having "old person insomnia," but this is still something. Something different than the frustration that comes when I lie awake at 3am, different from not being able to fall asleep. I feel productive, wide awake even without coffee, and if Target was open this early I'd probably get in the car and cross one more thing off of my to-do list for the weekend. These early morning hours feel more like gift than curse. But being someone who can easily sleep past 9am unless I set the alarm, I wonder where this is coming from. I'm not 70, I don't have a newborn, I don't even have a houseful of family who will wake up in a few hours expecting fry bread with orange marmalade (not that I have either of those things in the fridge).

The dog has already gone back to sleep. The cat is still sleeping in the same spot from last night. And I'm trying to decide if I will pick up a new book, or try to go back to sleep myself. I feel like I'll miss something important if I do.